Sooner or later, I am realising now, that those good talks, hour long calls and chats, were destined to be momentary phase in my life, I am trying to appreciate now his good qualities, those lively talks, whenever he comes to my mind, though I still go into negative phases. Even after trying that I forget him and move ahead, I sometimes think how he will be laughing and giggling now, but alas, I cant see those, this makes me cry as well, but I am trying my best too to be a better person from this experience, but once again the same 4 year old question striking my mind: why I get attached and not the other person, even though both were equally involved and lively in all aspects. Finally I think, let him go, for his happiness was not in me and our togetherness was destined for that 1.5month only. God bless me, and him too. I remember both of our families , specially my mom and his dad, having too much trust and devotion on Lord Shiva. Bless me god now, sometimes I fall down, sometimes I cherish up again, I am still trying a lot to understand depths of how my mind and heart work in tandem.